To my family; im sorry for painful 15 years we’ve spent together . But its time I must go. Everyone dies.. And its my Time.
Just know that its not your fault.. It’s just best that I leave you all. Because I cant love myself anymore.. I’m so lost .. And broken.
I love you all.
Have you ever felt so unhappy with your self its not barable.. I stay up all night thinking I’m never .. Ever good enough for anyone . I never reach the goals i want in life.. Or set the standards my mother expects of me. I’m never ever going to be good enough .
Maybe its time to go back to the dark side and just give up.. Give up everything .. I can’t even pick my head high enough off the ground to look both ways ~ I’d rather take the chance of getting hit.
I really got myself down today; for some reason. I couldn’t help but feel like everything in the world was bringing me down— and then you came along. You changed my whole mood from the crappiest I’ve felt in a really long time, to the greatest I could ever feel because I’m with you. Even…